accident

jz likes wat happened in horror movie.. jz likes wat u watch in final destination.. everything happened in nt more than 1 second! omg!!

shocked til idle 4 few seconds..
den feel so lucky cz nth hurt me.. de glass of window.. de door.. de.. everything.. n very very very lucky 1 is.. i nt need 2 go 2 police station.. luckily tat gal din go down.. luckily she stil alive.. if nt.. it's nightmare 4 me..

mayb some1 wil say me, say i m irresponsibility.. say i cant run away like tat.. say tis say tat.. bt sorry.. i dun think tat is my problem.. altho v were in a same car.. u can blame tat gal 4 her careless, can say driver 4 his greedy, bt u cant say me like tat, cz tat is nt my fault!

i m victim!! u noe? 12 hrs already.. my heartbeat stil very fast.. tat second alwaz appear in my mind.. fr ktm.. til i work.. til i bac fr work.. til now.. it cant disappear in my mind.. dunno 2nite wil hv nightmare o nt.. :(

第三者

没有人知道为什么我会那么生气...
没有人知道为什么我会那么偏激...
我只是一个局外人，我凭什么生气，凭什么骂人...
就凭我讨厌第三者可以吗？
就凭我讨厌不负责任的男子可以吗？

或许有人说有些第三者很无辜，很可怜...
或许有人说男的不可以这样子，都是男的错...
或许有人反过来要拿正牌的老婆或是女朋友反省...
也许大家都有错，也许是两个人的错，
也许只是某一个人的错，也许大家都没错...

不过，不管怎样，我认定的，第三者不应该出现，都是第三者的错！

我是很偏激，我是很不公平，我是很极端...
我就是这样的一个人，没有人可以改变得了我对第三者的看法...

或许曾经经历过吧！
在感情世界里，虽然说没有完全的对与错，
可是，会影响到我的，就是错了，这是我的认知。
当年，我还很小，是的，还蛮小的，徘徊在傻和懂事之间...
担心，难过，害怕... 让我偷偷躲在被窝里哭...
不懂流了多少泪后， 我知道 我要变坚强...

不再让自己有机会受伤，不给自己机会踩进复杂的感情世界里...
不相信爱情，是我的保护色...
就像刺猬的我，不会让人靠近，不会轻易的相信别人...

我讨厌第三者！！
不管踩进的是哪一段感情，我讨厌第三者！
第三者凭什么来打乱人家原本好好的生活？
又凭什么来破坏人家辛辛苦苦维系的感情？
世界上有那么多人，为什么偏偏要过来抢人家的老公/老婆或是男/女朋友？
为什么要那么贱？

突然朋友的恋情有变， 可怜她，生气他， 讨厌'她'...
'她'说什么道德伦理上来说'她'是错的却还踩了进去...
'她'明知到他已经有了她，明知道错了， 为什么还要错下去？
为什么要和他一起伤害她？
无辜的究竟是她还是'她'？ 为什么大家都帮着'她'？

是因为第三者都比较厉害耍手段吗？
应该是吧！
当年那个女的也是这样！我讨厌她！所以连带的我讨厌berapit！
我不懂为什么犯错的人还可以理直气壮的来骂人，
更不懂她凭什么要拿正牌的来跟她道歉...
那种臭男人你要就拿去好了，
为什么还要搞那么多事？
为什么要搞到人家家破人亡？
为什么要那么犯贱？？

曾经有一个更过分的第三者！
都几岁人了 安娣！
人家的爸爸都让你牵着鼻子走了，
你干嘛跑到人家的学校来闹事？
你不怕羞的吗？
一个几十岁的老女人，
竟然跑到学校去跟一个小学生过意不去！
是她懦弱罢了，要是换做是我？ 哼！
你敢来惹我，那你得小心点！

不认同那首歌，梁静茹的第三者，
因为 第三者都不是好东西！！

lost

suddenly lost my way..
too many ppl ask me abt my future..
i hv my own dreams, bt there r too many barriers in front of me..
i cant b so selfish, i hv my own responsibilities in sth else..

however, i noe it's jz a short period..
after i done my responsibilties,
after all de problem solved,
i wil get bac my way 2ward my dreams
de dark cloud wil go off, n de sky wil bright..
n, it wil b a gd future 4 me, i noe..

6th sept

bac bm few days d.. everyday stay at home, nvr step out fr de door..

s my plan on mon nite, 2day, thu, v went 4 dinner.. bt.. it's hard 4 me 2 decide where 2 go.. cz mum dun like 2 eat japanese food, korean food, western food o even fast food..

planned 2 go redbox, planned 2 go autocity, planned 2 go tambun, bt at last, v went 2 a terrible restaurant.. tat restaurant is where they celebrated grandma's bday last mth..

how i think abt tat restaurant?
1st impression --> normal
after enter tat restaurant --> interior design is quite attractive
service --> nt gd
food --> jz few type
drink --> no in menu
again, service --> terrible
price --> normal

at 1st, i thought it is jz a normal restaurant n wonder y they wan 2 take photo there.. once i entered tat restaurant, i shock tat it has a nice interior design (if compare wif others lah, it has a bit different, different theme wif other chinese restaurants)
however, nobody wan 2 serve us when v entered.. there were so many staffs there, bt nobody wan 2 work! Den a auntie came 2 take order, jz take a piece of menu! after v said v wan 2 c oso, she went 2 take, jz take ONE! bull shit! a menu 4 food, where is de menu 4 drink? OMG! no menu 4 drink? if nt mistaken, by law, it cant b like tat rite? ok fine, after order, a waitress served us drink.. is she a waitress? y so slow motion 1? n wat she did? a basic F&B knowledge she oso dunno! look how she served?!
den de food.. tis 1 i dun wan 2 say so much.. bt i jz can say tat they wil add sth 2 u which is nt in menu.. haha.. when i wan 2 takin photo of my 'special model' who appeared in 'claypot hoi mei' , in jz a few seconds, a auntie came so fast n took away tat plate where v put our 'special guest'.. haha.. they sked abt us? o sked abt my camera? actually i hd took 1 pic of tat 'special guest', hehe.. after v finish our food, they took desserts n said soli 2 us, tat desserts r they free 2 us 1, bla bla bla.. they wan 2 'bei liong qin da fa ngor dei zou'? haha.. really is 'liong qin', very 'mou sheng yee'.. haiz..

thought wan 2 treat them eat better 1 mah, how noe at last jz want a normal restaurant (wif special guest??), bt they help me 2 save my $$ loh, haha..

巧克力cookies

最近真的是k唱上瘾了，星期五才和‘家人’去，几天后的星期二又跟室友去greenbox了， 呵呵……第二次跟她唱k了,两次都是只有我们两个，嘻嘻……
还记得上一次是我害她在watson花了很多钱，这一次轮到她害我破费了，唉…… 她说要做巧克力送朋友，就要我陪她去买材料，结果，就不只是她买咯……

没有想到吧！ 平时不进厨房的我竟然这样有兴致要做cookies？ 呵呵…… 讲出来都把大家吓了一大跳吧！我自己也没有想到我会有这样的兴致的一天，毕竟平时在家要煮面都懒了…… :p

回到家，吃过晚餐，我们就开始做了。（其实佩雯是要拿我的当试验品, Sad）
原本就只有我跟佩雯两个在厨房的，后来，在我们k歌的时候忙着k书的yul 也跑过来八了，哈哈……

原来，做这种巧克力cookies真的很容易，不到一个小时我们就弄好了，而且还是无师自通的那种，因为我们都没有做过，也没有向人请教过。（真的很容易，难怪像emma这种人也能做得出来，还我之前还那麽欣赏她！）

可爱的yul竟然不舍得吃她自己弄得那个，不只拍了照留念，还.. 还把那个cookies带进房，放在书桌上，k书的时候还不时‘偷偷’看它，呵呵……

对了，我有给我的‘家人’吃哦！阿妈，淑华都说不错呢！ 星期三佩雯才做她的，请太婆吃，太婆还说，我的比她的好吃呢， 嘻嘻……
我们也有拿给auntie吃，可是auntie不在，就拿给她的儿子咯…… 竟然发现.. 原来他也有进厨房的，呵呵…… 我们去的时候他在炒饭，闻到是还不错的，只是不知道可不可以吃，哈哈……

之前还蛮担心做不成的，还逼佩雯说如果做到不好吃她必须帮我啃完，因为是她害我买的，是她怂恿我做的。不过还好做出来很不错，蛮有成就感的，毕竟我是那种连饭都不能煮好的人（虽然只是第一次这样，后来没有了，但是还是会被人酱子讲，唉……）

平时我们都在用锅，这是我家的pan第二次被我们用，哈哈…… 第一次是住旧家的时候，我们煮意大利面的时候，它被用来煮sauce..
我们这家人哦...好像还蛮...的，呵呵……

好啦，为了让它被善于利用， yul说下次她要做蛋糕，那种不用用owen也可以做的蛋糕， 可是不知道是几时的事咯，呵呵……

holidays

holidays started..

doing nth on 31st aug.. den went pj..

1st sept, noon, went 2 bukit tinggi.. 1st time i b there, after my 2 assignmnets r abt tis place.. it's nt s cold s i imagined.. somemore it's damn hot.. i'm wonderin tat -- is tat bcz it's nt so cold, so they changed its name 2 berjaya hills? izzit, mr vincent?
jz stay there 4 few hrs, den v went bac.. evening, v hd our dinner at genting.. crazy d? no lah! v jz wan 2 xperience rich ppl's life.. since they can go HK 4 breakfast, french 4 lunch, japan 4 dinner,... since v r poor, cannot go so far, so v went genting onli.. haha..
after dinner, shop awhile there, den v bac.. bac pj? no lah! stil early.. so v went 2 one U 4 a movie.. :p

2nd sept, nite, went putrajaya 2 watch fireworks.. spent $$ 2 buy ticket 2 go inside.. bullshit! waste my $$ onli.. cant deny de fireworks r beautiful.. however.. they r nt s amazin s my imagination.. it's nt worth 4 me 2 buy ticket 2 go inside de PICC 2 watch.. i regret 2 gv up my cloth where i found on genting n choose 2 spend de $$ 4 tis fireworks.. haiz..

2day, 3rd sept, i'm going bac 2 bm.. n having my holidays at home..

5th, my cute roommate's birthday.. n oso his birthday.. dunno wat 2 buy 2 him.. can i jz act like i hv 4 got??

7th, i think i wil b in autocity.. mayday comin.. n i get my tickets fr fren.. nt sure wil go wif who.. if any1 wan 2 go, jz get de tickets fr me (hopefully i stil got when u ask fr me lah!)

nt so sure when i wil bac 2 serdang.. 8th? o 9th? dunno.. bt 9th is my mom's birthday, hopefully can celebrate wif her earlier if i hv 2 bac serdang b4 tat..