如果你在乎我,可不可以让我知道

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如果，你在乎我。
可不可以让我知道，不要总是让我找你，
那会让我感觉，你根本就不在意我。


如果你在乎我，就不要总是让我孤单一个人，我真的很讨厌

寂 寞。


如果，你在乎我。
记得多关心我关心我，我喜欢你问我今天做了什么，
而不是自己一个劲地告诉你，我今天怎么了。


如果，你在乎我。
在我情绪低落，心情郁闷的时候，要多讲话逗逗我，
不要一直的沉默，其实，只要你一句话，我就会很开心了。


如果，你在乎我。
在我生你气的时候，绝对不可以想着我在生气，就不理会我。
这样，我会很伤心，也会更生气，其实，我只是想你哄哄我。


如果，你在乎我。
不要总是回我 呵呵 哦 这类的话语，就算你不想说话，也要多打几个字，不要让我感觉你是在敷衍我。


如果，你在乎我。不要让我在需要你的时候，却找不到你，那样 的我很无助。


如果，你在乎我。要记住我们在一起发生的事情，要记住我的喜 好。


如果，你在乎我。
不管是好是坏的事情，我都想你可以告诉我，
让我分享你的快乐，分担你的忧愁。


如果，你在乎我。
你会想办法，让我每天都开开心心的吧？
如果我在乎你，我也可以做到。

23062010

as prediction, woke up with swollen eyes

on the way to work, onefm was playing a song sing by 梁文音, a song that meant a lot to me -- 哭过就好.
and on my facebook, i post ''i know. i cry. i understand. i let go.'' i know that it's not easy to let go, but i have no choice, i have to, because this is her decision. i have no right to be disappointed, as this is a result of my mistaken, a wrong decision i made, so i have to face it, eventhough the situation now is not as what i aspect. won't regret even the 'try' failed, at least i tried.

did not go post office because of some reasons.
the situation in meeting room at 11am is as how i predicted, it was very cold and my stomach was growling =.=

my hot date with ms. c thc was on! planned to dine at lorong seratus tahun, but then when j & c came to my house, the shop was almost close, hence, we dined at station one at sunway. then, g came after badminton, and then t came.
after quite some time, i did not go club, and today, they brought me there again, cocoa banana. haha.. i entered cocoa banana with my nerd look with spec! hahaha..
ermm.. why i club again? i did not forget the promise, but as how someone told me, i cannot hold my stupid principle because of that reason, i should not bear so much of things, should slowly put down some. and i am trying now.

i am always so lucky actually. i always have friends beside me when i have problems, when i am down, and sure when i am happy lah ^.^
really thanks 4 of them for the night they were with me!

C, J, G & T, thanks you guys so much!!

allice tan

prediction 23062010

now is 3.00am on 23 June 2010

the prediction started here..

early in the morning
8.00am
working hard on the result of crying last nite -- my swollen eyes (the eyes are red somemore!! how to cover? arghhhhh)


9.30am
office is loaded with aroma of nescafe

10.30am
time to exercise! walk walk walk! walk to post office and walk back..

11.10am
in a quiet meeting room, me & my manager are having meeting in a quiet + cold meeting room.. and.. there's a weird sound here.. someone's stomach is growling.. oppsss.. it's mine!! >.<

afternoon
1.40pm
take a fresh breath & have something to fed the poor little empty stomach..

3.00pm
aroma of nescafe, again, filled the office..

6.00pm
date ms.C THC

................


cant see the pic clear now.. brain said it dun wan 2 think anymore..
so that's all for prediction today..

allice tan

梁继璋送给儿子的备忘录

(注明：香港电台主持人梁继璋送给儿子的备忘录）

我儿:

写这备忘录给你，基于三个原则：
(一）人生福祸无常，谁也不知可以活多久，有些事情还是早一 点说好。

(二）我是你的父亲，我不跟你说，没有人会跟你说。
(三）这备忘录里记载的，都是我经过惨痛失败得回来的体验， 可以为你的成长省回不少冤枉路。

以下，便是你在人生中要好好记住的事：

（一）对你不好的人，你不要太介怀，在你一生中，没有人有义务要对你好，除了我和你妈妈。至于那些对你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，也请多防备一点，因为，每个人做每件事，总有一个原因，他对你好，未必真的是因为喜欢你，请你必须搞清楚，而不必太快将对方看作真朋友。

（二）没有人是不可代替，没有东西是必须拥有。看透了这一 点，将来你身边的人不再要你，或许失去了世间上最爱的一切 时，也应该明白，这并不是甚么大不了的事。

（三）生命是短暂的，今日你还在浪费着生命，明日会发觉生 命已远离你了。因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈 多，与其盼望长寿，倒不如早点享受。

（四）世界上并没有最爱这回事，爱情只是一种霎时的感觉， 而这感觉绝对会随时日、心境而改变。如果你的所谓最爱离 开你，请耐心地等候一下，让时日慢慢冲洗，让心灵慢慢沉 淀，你的苦就会慢慢淡化。不要过分憧憬爱情的美，不要过分夸 大失恋的悲。

（五）虽然，很多有成就的人士都有受过很多教育，但并不等 如不用功读书，就一定可以成功。你学到的知识，就是你拥 有的武器。人，可以白手兴家，但不可以手无寸铁，紧记！

（六）我不会要求你供养我下半辈子，同样地我也不会供养你 的下半辈子，当你长大到可以独立的时候，我的责任已经完 结。以后，你要坐巴士还是Benz，吃鱼翅还是粉丝，都要自己负责。

（七）你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求别人守信，你可以要求自己对人好，但不能期待人家对你好。你怎样对人，并不代表人家就会怎样对你，如果看不透这一点，你只会徒添不必要的烦恼。

（八）我买了十多二十年六合彩，还是一穷二白，连三奖也没 有中，这证明人要发达，还是要努力工作才可以，世界上并没有免费午餐。

（九）亲人只有一次的缘份，无论这辈子我和你会相处多久， 也请好好珍惜共聚的时光，下辈子，无论爱与不爱，都不会再见 。

溶化了

心，不懂怎么，怪怪地，
好像突然被挖空了似的…

一直说，简单就好……
简单，说当然简单啊！
可，我就是做不到嘛！

有人说，我不曾尝试，
不愿尝试，就说不能…
有谁懂，我一直在试，
努力逼自己做到这点，
但，我的尝试失败了…

从来都不抱任何希望，
因为我懂，那是奢望…

希望破灭也许会很伤，
当一个人连希望破灭的机会也没有的时候，
就像，就像…　像什么呢？我也形容不出…

唉，算了…
就让它这样怪下去吧，
反正久了就会习惯了…

也不懂自己在胡言乱语什么，
这几天，冰块溶化了…
失去了自己原本的形状…

allice tan

I am What I am!!

Above & Beyond pres. Oceanlab - I Am What I Am



I know you've read
So many books
You keep a breast of all the things you think you should
You've got your own home grown philosophy
And it works for you
But please don't try to make it work for me

You have nothing to prove
But you're trying much too hard
Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)
No I don't need you to save me (I don't need you to save me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)

I don't want you to show me (I don't need you to show me…)
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand…)
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)
Just know who I am (Just know who I am…)

Just know who I am...
Just know who I am...

I know you feel
You need to prove
That you are good at something
Everything you try to do
And people have on your every word
That you deliver
With conviction
Though they may just be absurd

Leave your armor behind
Free your vulnerable mind

Stop trying to change me (Stop trying to change me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)
No I don't need you to save me (I don't need you to save me…)
I am what I am (I am what I am…)
I don't want you to show me (I don't need you to show me…)
Because I stand where I stand (I stand where I stand…)
I just need you to know me (just need you to know me)
Just know who I am (Just know who I am…)

Just know who I am...
Just know who I am...

sista

i have 2 younger sisters. both of them born in the 1st week of June. and both of them called Chris.
my 'blood' sister called me 'san1 jie3' & another sister who has no 'blood-related' one called me 'ah jie2'.

that day, i had dinner with my no-blood-related sister. it had been around 2 years that we did not meet up. but still, she is so cool & so warm. cool in her character, and warm in her heart.
although she is the younger one, the care & concern she shares is much more than how i could give her. i am so lucky to know her in 2005. oh my god! i know her for 5 years already!! time flies..

still remember that time when we stay in small little room in KC, she & our no-blood-related mother always take care of me. they helped me in lots of things when the stupid me got into trouble. when i was sick, especially that time, when i walked alone to pusat perubatan, and fainted there for hours, sis came & accompanied me back to our hostel. on the way back, i almost faint again, kneel down at the roadside, can't speak, can't hear, can't see... she was so worried, kept asking if i still ok to go back or need to go to pusat perubatan again. i ended up manage to walk back hostel & fainted again on my bed once i entered the room.

when we moved out from KC, i did not stay together with them, my family in serdang, but they never stop their concern to me. when they know that i have not enough money, they invited me to have lunch or dinner at their house. i could not forget the lovely food prepared by my family there. and when they know that i got problem, they always help me to solve or give me idea or suggestion. once, when i disappeared, they were being asked by my coursemates, and they kept calling me eventhough they knew that i've already switched off my handphone, especially my sister. i was so guilty to make her & ah ma worry.

sister called me and asked if i am still at mid valley. she was there! surprise & excited! since she is so busy with her work.
we had our dinner at the korean store there and kept talking. or, maybe can say as i was the one who can't stop talking. when talked about our recently life, she 心疼 me, and said, ah jie, you are too tired, you need a rest. she wanted to sponsor me to go to find ah ma! what's a good sister i have!

time flies & changes lots of things, but her care & concern is still there! my first tear dropped that night when she show her care to me, and willing to help me in any method i want, i just need to open my mouth. touch.

she wanted me to promise her something, and i really tried my best to keep the promise.
and she, really keep her words.. does what she said everyday..

yogai! my sister asked me not to scare you all, must fight back! and  she is there willing to give me support! hence, i should not be like that anymore!! i will stand up on my own foot!!

sis, thx ya so much! luv ya!

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思想轉換 - 心態的力量 【The strength of mindset】

女兒向父親抱怨，事事都很艱難。
A daughtercomplains toward the father, everything is difficult.

她不知如何應付生活，好像一個問題剛剛解決，新的問題又會 出現，她有些厭倦。
She finds it hard to cope with life, seem a problem just resolve, the new problem appeared again, she was tired.

父親是一位廚師，把她帶進廚房。
Her father is a cook, bring her into the kitchen.

他先往三口鍋裡倒入一些水，然後放在旺火上。
He goes toward first to pour into some waters in 3 pots, then puts on the fire.

不久，水開了。
Soon, water boiling.

他往第一口鍋裡放一些胡蘿蔔，第二口鍋裡放入雞蛋，第三口 鍋裡放入碾成粉末的咖啡豆。
He put some carrots in the first pot, put an egg into the second pot, put some coffee powder into the third pot.



20分鐘後，父親把火關了，把胡蘿蔔撈出來，放入一個碗內， 把雞蛋撈出來，放入一個鍋內，然後把咖啡舀到一個杯子裡。
20 minutes later, father off the fire, take out the carrot. Go to the second pot take out the egg, and  then ladling up the coffee to a cup.

父親轉身問女兒：
The father turned to ask his daughter:


「孩子，你看到了什麼？」
'Kid, what do you come in sight of?'

「胡蘿蔔，雞蛋，咖啡。」她說。
「Carrot, egg, coffee」She say.

他讓她靠近一些，摸摸胡蘿蔔。
He lets her come closer to touch the carrot.

她注意到他它們變軟了。
She noticed the carot become soft.

父親又讓女兒拿一個雞蛋，打破它，剝掉殼，這是一個煮熟的 雞蛋。
The father lets the daughter take the egg, breaking it, peel the egg shell,this is a cooked egg.

最後，父親讓她喝了一口咖啡。
Last, the father lets her drink a mouthful of coffee.

嘗到濃濃的咖啡，女兒笑了，怯聲問道：
Taste to the very thick coffee, the daughter smile, she asked:

「父親，這意味著什麼？」
'Father, what does this mean?'

父親說，三樣東西面臨同樣的逆境——煮沸的開水。
The father says three things face same adverse circumstances-boiling water.

但其反映各不相同。
But its reflection is not same.



胡蘿蔔入鍋前是強壯的、結實的，放進開水，它變軟了、變弱 了。
The carrot, before put in to the pot, it is strong and hard, after putting into the boiled water, it become soft,become weak.


雞蛋原來是易碎的，薄薄的外殼保護著液態的內臟，開水一煮， 內臟變硬。
The egg is originally crumbly, the very thin outer shell protects the internal organs of the liquid, once  the boiled water cook, the internal organs become hard.

粉狀咖啡豆則很獨特，進入沸水，它們便改變了水。
The coffee bean powder then is very special, entering boiling water, they changed the water then.



在艱難和逆境前，可以學胡蘿蔔、雞蛋和咖啡豆，可以屈服，
也可以變得更堅強——甚至，可以改變環境。
We can learn how carrot,egg and coffee bean react in the difficulties and adverse circumstances.  They can accept defeat, can become stronger, and even can change environment/surrounding.


父親說：
The father say:

你改變不了環境，但可以改變自己；
Your cannot change the environment, but can change yourself;

你改變不了事實，但可以改變態度；
Your cannot change the fact, but can change an attitude;

你改變不了過去，但可以改變現在；
Your cannot change the past, but can change the present;

你不能控制他人，但可以掌握自己；
You have no command over others, but can control yourself;

你不能預知明天，但可以把握今天；
You can't predict tomorrow, but can hold on today;

你不能樣樣順利，但可以事實盡心；
You can't be doing smooth and well in everything, but can devote your best effort;

你不能左右天氣，但可以改變心情；
You can't change weather, but can change a mood;

你不能改變容貌，但可以展現笑容；
You can't change facial appearance, but can emerge with smiling face;


是的，心態有時比什麼都重要。
Yes, the mindset sometimes is important compares with others.

短暂的幸福

我的世界  仿佛静止在这一刻。

暖暖的Caramel Macchiato包围了整个我，把我与那个冰冷的世界隔离。

什么都不想，就这样，静静地，在昏黄的灯光下，听着音乐，享受着最爱的星巴克，写着最爱的方块字。

已有好一阵子没有像现在这样一个人了。
还记得以前在沙登的时候，要么就跑去The Mines去看电影，要么就到湖边跑步然后坐着发呆。离开沙登搬到双威后，做工了，每次回到双威的时候都已经很迟了，没能跑步，就换去喝咖啡了。

不是没有朋友，也许就像联盛说的，找朋友聊，然后呢？听他们说那大同小异的话，接受他们的安慰，然后呢？问题还是存在啊！也许，发泄出来后的那一刻会好过一点，可是，当你回想的时候，其实什么都没改变。

所以啊，我现在只是想给自己放个假，短暂的，数个小时的假。

Starbucks，不懂有什么魔法，让我每次来到，就可以很自然地放松。
一个人的星巴克，不需要开口说话，不需要担心这个，顾虑那个，不需要刻意做些什么，什么都不必做，不必想。

曾经  有个人告诉我，他爱喝涩涩的红酒，因为那涩涩的感觉，就好像人生。
我倒觉得桌上这杯Caramel Macchiato更可以贴切地用来形容人生。

最底层的Espresso，就像生活中的考验，有人会认为很苦，可是，只有真正懂得欣赏Espresso的人才知道，Espresso其实是带甜的。有些人受不了Espresso的那股劲，选择吐出来，或不喝了。就像有些人接受不了生活中的打击，崩溃了，放弃了，走上绝路。
中间的那一层牛奶，是平淡的日子。
最表面的那一层foam，就是平凡生活中小小的惊喜。
好多人都爱的caramel dizzle，就像人人都追求的幸福。
一层层的Caramel Macchiato，不也像人生不同的阶段吗？

好久没用手写方块字了，字体还是一样小，一样圆。
人家说字体小的人很小器。如果是这样的话，我不只是很小器，还很圆滑，可是我是吗？一个圆滑的人，人缘应该很好，朋友应该很多吧？应该不会像我这样时常得罪人吧？呵呵......

那位美女barista进来收拾东西后要出去了，当她打开门的那一刻，我才发现，外面的世界好喧哗。而我们被关在这个玻璃门里，好像真的与世隔绝。除了从播音器发出的音乐声外，就只有最后面桌所传来的敲键盘声。两个陌生人在这么一个没人干扰的空间里，享受着吵杂中的宁静。

桌上的咖啡，冷了。可是我的心是暖的。

也许没有人能体会星巴克所可以给我带来的那种感觉。
也许你觉得很不可思议。
也许你在怀疑。



此时此刻，我在咖啡香里找到被遗忘的幸福。


2010.5.21 10.37pm 愛麗絲 @ Starbucks, Sunway Pyramid

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i posted the blog 3 years ago..
when orange & 333 broke up.
was very angry that time when 333 treated orange like that.. they were so sweet & happy when the time we at bm, but how come the situation changed like that? it's very difficult for me to accept.. i felt that orange was very pity.. but i never think from 333 & sam side that time.. hence, i never know how suffer 333 & sam were.. the suffer that 333 passed through.. the suffer that sam experienced.. so, i owe them an apologize..

Sorry 333 & sam.. my sincere apologize to both of you..
i'm so glad to know the sweetness of you two via Facebook, especially the malacca trip that 333 waited for long time! i can feel how sweet the trip was via the photos :)

not sure you guys will read this post or not, but i am just.. just.. wanna say sorry.. i not dare to dig back the old story when chatting with you.. not dare say it in front of you..please forgive this little chicken..

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