it had been quite some time I did not update my bloggie here.
for months, I experienced lots of things. I had been forced to face something I never want to face. there’s nightmare!
we planned for a family gathering at KL since my 2nd elder sister going to Holland. thought it would be a happy & warm moment since we did not have chance to gather after CNY. however, the reality is so cruel that once sister & parent stepped on the land of KL. it was a war between my sisters!
next, when everything become better on the next day, when we had our lunch, there’s a call from BM that made us worry. I thought that it was just a small incident since they always like to call and disturb especially when dad & mum are outside.
I could hardly believe when Peng told me that grandma stopped breathing. there’s no tears drop from my eyes. I only started to panic when uncle brought the bad news to eldest sister. I told eldest sister that I want my 2 little cousins to come back from taiwan because they grow up with us & they really ‘sek’ (sayang in Cantonese) my grandma so much. my tears only dropped off when eldest sister talked with the elder cousin in the phone. We ask them to check the flight tickets by themselves and we only provide our credit card info to them once they confirm.
then, we had to arrange our transport back to BM. called to hire a van to send us back because the whole family was here and we could not fixed in sister’s coupe. before depart, ah girl was sent to its new place where it can get more freedom to run and play if compare with our small little kitchen.
reach BM around 12am. Grandma was still lying on the bed. Again, tears dropped.
I guess, dad could not accept the truth that grandma left us. this is a 遗憾 because could not be at her side when she left. 1st time, I saw dad act like that.
(gosh! stop blurring my vision, tears!)
I know that we should not cry because grandma left peacefully without suffering so much. I know that we could not ask more from the god since grandma aged 100. but, I’m an aquarius! I could not control the tears!
(sorry, I have to stop here eventhough I have yet to finish all what I want to say.. the tears keep slipping out and block my vision.. to be continue..)
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