terrible student

terrible student like me..
no others can sit @ de place #1 xcept me!
how come? y i bcome like tat?

last week i thought location there made me feel sleepy & FISHING on m.regis class..
(omg! almost whole class noticed it, sure m. oso if nt he wont ask me out 2 write sth, haha.. somemore if he nt noticed it, he is blind d, cz i sit jz in front of him, haha..)

2day, our class change fr dkap bac 2 sanggar.. so gd! thought it would b better, bt.. jz same.. i oso FISHING in class.. how??

nt onli m.regis class, marketing oso.. dunno y 2day bcome like tat.. is tat bcz of rain??

i'v tried 2 pay attention.. really.. i'v tried 2 concerntrate.. tried 2 open up my eyes.. however, my eyes, my head, my brain, dun wan 2 listen 2 me.. continue FISHING..
mayb bcz if tat, lecturer gv us 5mins 2 rest after 20mins i enterd de class.. (late 2 class d, somemore fall asleep in class!! tis kind if student, tis kind of gal!! haiz..)
finally tis 5 mins break bcome 1week break! (feel so shy when he said tat wan 2 let us bac 2 rest..) (is tat really bcz of me?? OMG!!)

i dun wan 2 b like tat! tis is jz de 4th week! i stil wan 2 survive!!
any1 got remedies help me 2 solve is pro?
help me pls!!
i dun wan 2 b tis kind of terrible student!!
i wan 2 survive @ tis sem!!!

wat kind of person i m?

few days ago, some1 told me tat i look like her fren, gv her a same feelin tat her fren gv her.. if i say i dun mind she said like tat, nobody wil blieve.. cz myself oso cant blieve tat i dun mind.. bt.. i m really tat kind of person? if really like tat, i hv 2 change.. i'l try 2 change..

i was told tat i m quite selfish, i wont think abt others, everything i care of myself 1st den onli others.. n.. .. .. .. .. .. ..

ya lah! same r really true lah, i cant deny it.. bt some i hv not notice til she said it.. bt some.. i really cant remember tat i did b4 o was i? m i?

quite upset..

frenz who r reading my blog, can u tell me wat kind of person i m ( in ur eyes )? let me noe wat i need 2 change..

i dun wan 2 gv other ppl 2 say me like tat again.. i wan 2 change..

shopping queen #2

omg!! after yul, i'm shopping queen #2!!

after sing k wif roommate, v 'shop' at watsons.. i think tis is 1st time sherry go shopping like tat.. haha.. spent lots of time at watsons.. walked here walked there.. took tis took tat.. took & put bac, took & put bac.. haiz.. crazy gals.. finally.. spent a lot there..

den bac 2 our HOME SWEET HOME at 3sth..

crazy!!!
after yul & bell bac, they said wan 2 go mines.. so v went mines..

really crazy already!!!

i dunno y i can b like tat.. totally lost control!!!!
spent lots of $$$ there..

went midvalley on mon & mines 2day.. worked 4 days & i spent all of my paid in tis 2 days.. worked so tired.. n i jz spent my paid so fast, so eazy??
haiz........................

shopping queen #2.. NO!! i dun wan 2 b # 2, (sure nt #1 oso lah! cz #1 is alwaz a place 4 yul, kekeke) i wan 2 b # last!! haha..

break de record ^^

break de record 2day.. sales up to 60.. wao!!
nt onli hits target, carine break her own record.. so she treat us domino's.. hehe..

started 2 gv consultation 2 ppl although i stil dunno how 2 say actually :p
however, i stil can sell more than 5.. it's quite gd 4 me as a new gal..

stil feeling tired now.. lying on bed.. legs cant move already..jz moving my hands, my fingers 4 typing.. quite pity bt feel hapi :)

......

星期一走着路回家的时候，突然接到他的电话，还蛮意外的，因为他很久都没有打电话给我了……

这次回bm见了些人，在同一个星期内，竟然有不同的人问起我的[历史]……
不是我不要说，我是真的不知道要怎么说嘛…… 也不知是我的记忆力衰退了，还是刻意去忘记，感觉上和他一起的记忆真的是少得可怜……

我可以是一个很好的朋友，可是我一定不是一个很好的女朋友，我知道，我不适合当人家的女朋友， 因为我连一些基本当人家女朋友的条件都没有（除了我是女的之外）……

对他，我除了抱歉，还是抱歉。 这个假期过后，被朋友讲了之后，还有点内疚，就这样。 我很坏吧？
当时根本不应该跟他在一起的，那样也许会比较好一点。

要不是J的事情发生过后，我根本不会想和他在一起；
要不是担心同样的事情在发生，我根本不会答应他。
虽然J的事情未必和我有关系，虽然一直想搞清楚那坚实的经过，可是，我还是抬不起勇气去问。
如果我问了，他给我的答案真的是那样，我会怎样？ 应该会比现在更加内疚+自责吧！ 应该还是会一想起就忍不住流泪吧！
如果我问了，他给我的答案并不是我想的那样，我或许会想，那是因为他不要我难过才着这样讲的吧！ 那我会更加更加内疚！
很矛盾，所以，就这样吧，我想.。

J事件过后，认识他，后来就这样，和他在一起了。
有人说，因为不了解所以在一起，然后因了解而分手，那我们呢？ 直到分手的那天，我们还是不了解彼此。
朋友问我，是因为距离吗，mm... 可以算是吧，心的距离也是距离啊！
是我的问题，我知道。 而我当时根本没有勇气去和他面对面说清楚，甚至连通过电话都不干，连分手都是透过sms的， 我， 真的很坏吧？

真的不想去害人，我只是觉得没有必要去浪费大家的时间，不要耽误了别人。既然他要的，我做不到； 我要的，他给不到，就没有必要勉强改变自己来配合对方吧。

这是很久很久以前的事了，也不知道还有什么了，我的记忆里， 有阿杜的，应该都会有小白，友庆和佩玲……
N年后的现在，佩玲已经在台湾了，友庆就快当老板了， 而小白，那个会唱歌给我听的小白已经失去联络， 丽蓉不知所踪…… 那个被晶芝说眼睛像金城武的阿杜呢？ 是继续暴肥呢 还是又瘦回了？

i can b GOD ^^

fri, a tired bt hapi day..

tired bcz of work, & hapi bcz i can finally on9 at home :)

reach home abt 11.sth, so so tired bcz nt enough sleep, bcz of work, bcz faced some * ppl at midvalley, bcz wastin' so much time 4 tat stupid 416, bczSSSssss........
n hapi bcz can meet may ying, chat wif her, :) n so hapi bcz i've learnt how 2 gv consultation, n my 1st consultation without de helpin' of eunice n carine get a gd respond! i think 2mr i can start 2 consult ppl myself if cat o eunice o whoever go break, when nt enough staff.. s0 SO hapi bcz finally can on9 at home!! haha...

ah hao already at my home when i bac. Bell & Sherry could nt on9 via wireless. so he was helpin them 2 solve their problem. bell said he spent abt 2 hrs bt at last failed oso..
i dun wan 2 gv up, so i tried n tried.. finally, bell's pc got respond.. rcv there finally got sth, although it's jz hundred sth ( it's better than b4 which is 0 ).. den tried n tried.. heartbeat so fast after few steps when viewin' de figure of rcv.. more n more n more.. msn was singed-in!! yeah!! allice, u r god!!
go bac 2 my room.. in front of sherry's pc.. tried n tried n tried.. failed.. tried n tried n tried again.. finally..

i hv qualified 2 b god, gal god, god lady ( which appeared at bell's msn )!!
yea, so hapi, haha..
bt actually i'm nt, i'v no tat qualification 2 b god, i noe.. so.. i dun wan 2 b god, i wan 2 b angel, hehe.. ;-)

1st day..

finally uni reopen..

1st day already late.. :p
class at 8am n i wake up at 8sth.. hahaha...
rush 2 class without taking my breakfast..

**breakfast is important 4 me, it's a problem 4 me if i din take breakfast.. so.. my 1st day..

ate emma's appollo in class (in front of m.gabarre somemore, haha).. bt it din help at all.. hungry..
after m.gabarre class, v hv m.regis class at dkap.. last sem he din teach us.. bt he got teach may ying them.. jz noe tat m.regis, mdm chong & mdm lim r parttime lecturers at um, cz may ying said their lecturers bac french liao, n they hd nt enough lecturer..

den.. after m.regis class, went fep.. hv my lunch there at 12sth..
serious gastric b4 class start.. think wan 2 go bac b4 lecturer come, bt at last, i can survive til end of marketing class.. (shit!! marketing seems like so tough!! i totally dunno wat lecturer teaching in 1st class!!)

hv spanish class at 5pm bt i din go.. i went bac 2 take medicine then sleep.. sleep?? yup, sleep.. last nite chat wif yul til 5sth den onli sleep.. tat's y lah, cant wake up, :p
when i woke up, i cant eat mcD :'( elvis help yul & cat buy mcD, n they ate in my hse.. i cant eat :( so pity.. i jz ate oatmeal + biscuit 4 my dinner..

haiz.. my 1st day..

new life

half yr ad..
wat i 've done in tis half yr??
nth.. yes, i did nth in tis half yr..
i jz spent my half yr 2 'think bukan-bukan',
2 gv mysef excuse 2 pass my days wif grumble, complaint tis complaint tat..
i totally 4got my dreams in tis half yr..

half yr d..
i cant b like tat again..
start fr 2day..
1st july 2007
i cant b like tat again..
i'l find bac my way..
2 find my dreams..
2 make my dreams come true..

new sem comin soon..
i'l start my new life..
wif my new hairstyle..
my new HEART..
new ME..