finally

finally.. end of nov d..

i m havin my ''roller-coaster-life'' during nov..

rushin 4 assignments, especially 4 tat face-a-face project.. 1st n onli time, i slp late bt wake up earlier than my roommate.. i slp at 4sth 5sth den wake up at 7am jz 2 do tat stupid things.. few days like tat.. when ppl all bz doin revision 4 final exam.. i was stil rushin 4 tat project.. when my group members dunno doin wat.. few days like wat i can describe s 'bo jit bo meay'.. til a day b4 my 1st paper..

den.. started exam.. 1st paer.. 2nd paper.. 3rd paper.. 4th paper.. din study so much.. bcz of bz.. bcz of lazy.. bcz of mood.. moody tat time.. made my cant concentrate when i study.. haiz..

oh ya! crazy translation! i jz finish 2 onli! shit! cant use lab is already nt so gd.. same oso cant bring laptop.. if really cant use dic den i dunno wat i can get d.. luckily at last can use our big heavy dic.. emma straight bac melacca after tat paper den i help her 2 take bac her big big heavy heavy dic n middle small dic.. tat means i hd 2 bring bac 5 dics.. luckily i clever n did preparation b4 tat.. i brought my 'chek bao' there.. haha.. n emma really bought pineapple cookies 4 me when she bac fr melacca.. yummy.. thx emma..

den after my 4th paper, my lecturer, mrs bean wan 2 interview me n emma.. n v talk quite long time in her room.. pity wen wait me at hse til 11sth almost 12.. mm.. v went 2 sing k at cheras selatan.. hehe.. bt so 'sui' lah, when v reach ther was no room 4 us.. v hd 2 wait til 5pm.. n ah ma n chris oso.. bt v separate room.. hehe.. met Jacqueline n sin yee in front of lift.. they went 2 movie.. den they wait us n sent us bac.. so gd.. (L)

oh ya.. i katherine got kang tou 2 find 100 ppl work 4 tvxq n she's concert.. tat time me n wen so hapi.. thought v can go they concert 4 free.. bt when i sent name list 2 her.. too late d..... aiz.. hao guai sei sak mong ahhhhhhhhhh

den went sunway ENJOY HOLIDAYS?! no lah! stil got spanish paper.. went sunway few days den a nite b4 my last paper, sis sent me bac.. den after my last paper, she come 2 pick me again.. haha.. not enough 24 hrs pun.. :p

big prawn head left ic at serdang.. so hv 2 bac serdang 2 take ic.. bt lazy.. so left til
2 days after tat onli went bac 2 take.. b4 bac, went 2 midvalley 2 meet wong n hd lunch wif him.. he offered 2 send me bac bt i refused.. den raining.,.so he sent me bac altho he dunno de way 2 my place.. he come kl 1 yr ++ d stil dunno kl road den cakap saya pula.. he got car i no mah.. haiyo :( howeva, v managed 2 reach serdang 'safety'.. haha..

few days later.. wong said he wan 2 bac hometown ask me wan 2 bac wif him o nt.. bt i stil waitin 4 tat job i applied so i din bac wif him.. bt a day after tat, when i saty at sunway almost 1 week d, MY ask me 2 bac wif her.. by crystal's car.. so sun morning v bac bm n reach at noon..

long time din bac d.. noticed few changin.. n finally saw wat tat ''GOOD'' neighbor did. D***! miss tat time when b bee jie jie them stay here.. miss tat time when ze ming them nt yt move.. n.. i hv no neighbor now.. v hv no neighbour now..

once i stepped in2 hse, i rcv call fr malvin, tat person who in charge 2 find ppl 2 work 4 tat small computer fair 1.. asked me 2 work.. aiz.. too late.. den he ask me 2 work at de next week.. so i bac kl again..

howeva, at last, i din work 4 them oso :p
den bpang intro a job 4 me.. 3 days at sunway, bt hd 2 work immediately.. den.. i din work oso..
same day, swee yen asked me 2 work at klcc bt i refused.. den i regret d, called bac, bt she found ppl work d.. thought no chance d, bt in d evening, swee yen called again.. asked me i stil available 2 work, cz ricca wan me 2 work.. hehe.. so gd.. sure i wan.. :D

work at pwtc, den continue at wisma goldhill.. n now.. finally.. finish all things in nov.. hv few days 2 rest b4 dec start.. goin 2 pavillion n times square wif MY 2mr..hehe..

crazy day

nth.. jz tired.. lay on my lz chair n hv my dinner (altho it's 10sth, n normally it's my '1st' supper time).. tired, tired, tired..

tis is 1st time i go pwtc.. 1st time take lrt at abdul hukum.. 1st time take lrt 2 kelana jaya.. n.. 1st time meet tis stupid problem (star lrt cant direct fr pwtc 2 masjid jamek?! stupid! v hv 2 change at sultan ismail! wtf!) my sis is waitin 2 pick me up at kelana jaya, n she has a date wif fren after tat! soli, made her late again..

lost at pwtc, sigh.. thought it is a stand-alone-building, searchin 4 it after get out fr lrt, bt cant find it.. saw 2 gals look like searchin 4 it oso, so i follow them.. haha.. nt onli follow them til pwtc, i follow them enter de exhibition hall oso.. cz i'v no pass.. :p n after tat v noticed tat our booths r jz opposite fr each other :)
lunch at pwtc.. kns! so so so so expensive n so so so so so... nt nice at all! beh tahan.. call MY n complain, haha..
when bac, star 9 got problem, so de staff ask us 2 go 2 sentul den wait it turn bac den get down at sultan ismail, den change train.. crazy!! v jz like crazy ppl, get up n down fr train.. haiz..

luckily 2day sales stil ok, if nt i really wan 2 crazy d.. met those crazy ppl!!
dunno is bcz i so 'black' o wat, ppl i met 2day all crazy 1!! de malay uncle, d indian uncle, tat kulim guy, de taiwanese, de director uncle,..... they all siao 1!! crazy!!!
is tat bcz it hd been a short period i din work so i 4got abt de consumer behavior? o bcz of d attitude of human being? y all ppl i met like tat 1?! geram + pek chek!!

finish my burger now.. lz 2 go 2 throw de rubbish.. haiz.. 2mr goin 2 pwtc again.. feel more tired.. sien..

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so great hv a family here.. ^^

it hd been long time i din eat rice (tat time bz, rushing 4 assignment n... actually i oso dunno y lah, jz noe i was very very very bz tat time..even slp oso jz 1 o 2 hrs a day onli..)
den, tat day, my dear chris invite me 2 hv lunch at their hse.. 1stly, sure i shy.. 2 many times eat at their hse without any contribution.. bt sure, at last i hd lunch wif them.. n started fr tat day, i hv my lunch n dinner wif them most of da time..
like tat feeling so much.. v, 1 family, got my dear sis--chris, ah má, ah mà, yi po, tai po.. everyday spend our time 2gather on dining table.. so gd..

actually i dun like study here.. is 1 of my wrong decision.. i alwaz regret 4 tat..
however, i so glad tat i can study here sometimes.. at least i can noe them.. my dearest hsemates, my coursemates, n definitely my family here --> my dear sis, ah má, ah mà, yi po, tai po.. da onli persons who take care of me, gv me support when i need, worry me when i disappear tat time.. thx n luv u all..

jz now hv lunch wif them again.. den after lunch feel like wan 2 hv some dessert, so ah mà n tai po go down 2 buy a big box of ice cream when me n chris r washin dishes.. den.. 6 of us really can finish it, wau!!
it's a great time 4 me since i m so down tis few weeks.. v chit-chat there.. talk til taipo's wedding.. yeah! next yr.. wil i fly there 2 attend? da wedding of my family.. if possible, i hope tat i can attend.. bt it's better if ah má's wedding at da same time, so tat i no need 2 fly there for 2 times, hehe.. ah má's wedding sure i wil attend 1 ^^

6 of us on dining table.. 6 members, jz like my real family.. bt, it's hard 4 us 2 gather on dining table.. me, now at serdang; my lovely eldest sis, sharon, now bz wif her work, at sunway; joyce, til now i stil dunno wat she wan, dunno where she wan 2 go; n christy, next yr, wil she stil stay at bm? once a yr, cny, onli time my hse got 6 of us.. bt, is tat really v can eat 2gather at same time, on same table?? v hv 2 go grannies' hses.. cny eve, cny,..

i noe, it's a difficult time 4 us now.. so many problems occur.. bt i blieve tat 1 a day, it wil turn better.. if tat is a fate, i wil try hard 2 change it.. i cant do anything now.. bt 1 day, i wan u all noe, i wil change it.. v all wil hv a better life.. blieve.. v can change it..

坚强被杀了！

我应该是和自己在自相残杀吧？ 我想。

旋子思说的。
坚强已经被软弱杀了！

现在，在我体内的，应该只剩软弱了吧？

不懂该怎么解释……
我想，坚强真的累坏了吧！
就算再怎么武装，坚强 始终是伤痕累累……
一直被追，
不停地跑，
血，一直流，
最后，真得不行了，
被捉住了，
被绑架了，
然后，被杀了！

也许，他讲得没错，现在的我 的确很软弱。
我不懂为什么会变成这样，我应该要坚强的！
我不要这样啊！

美堂蠻, 平野銀次, 请你们帮我找回我的坚强好吗?