something i've forgot

read a book named 'Best Wishes' yesterday..

it had been quite some times i didn't shop for books. after watching the video of 'The Secret', i decided to buy the book. MPH sells it for RM79++ if not mistaken. i wanted to buy it, but due to some reasons (what else reason? sure is $ lah) i didn't buy it. Thursday night went Pyramid & bought the cheap version after work. Not only bought 'The Secret', i bought another 2 books which are 'Best Wishes' & 'The Twelfth Angel'.

opps.. i can't control myself to buy those books even though i not yet finish my Rich Dad's collection!! and i still have the book borrowed from my company library.
(Now, i finished the book 'Best Wished', but not yet finish 'The Secret'.. not even half.. sigh..)

Ok, talk back to the topic.

Time flies.. and i've slowly grow up & changed.. Sometimes, i pretend to forget something to make myself in 'the group'.. Sometimes, i choose to scarify something so that i can be someone else.. Days after days.. i forgot what is the real and what is fake!

1
'who i am?'
the answer could be aLLice, aLicia, ice, Ling, Xiao Ling,... but the door won't accept these kind of answer.. i am a 24-year-old gal who lost in the maze? same, the door won't accept the answer as well.. so 'who am i?'
the answer could be --> i am me, myself, someone i want to be!!

2
Bank of Love
when is the last time i hug someone? is that really so hard to give someone a warm sincere hug? actually the main point is not the hug, the hug is only one of the way to show LOVE.. do i share my love with my friends? family? someone who worth to get? someone who need? or maybe your enimies?

3
without dream = dead person
dream is something important in our life. someone without dream is a living corpse 活死人.
and my dream during my childhood, i totally forgot about it. i'm trying so hard to find back what is my first dream, and i couldn't recall! although i can't remember now, i know that i'll find it out one day.. and luckily i'm not a 100% living corpse, i still have my other dreams ^.~

4
spring cleaning
this is something i really need to do often. i need to clean all those 'dirt' in my heart often. erm.. what is the 'dirt'? it might be some thinking, opinion, or maybe misunderstanding, impression of someone,...

5.
why obstacle appears when we are on the way to chase our dreams?
most of the time, obstacle is actually something that create by ourselves. the fear, maybe, we scare that our dreams come true easily, we not yet ready to accept the gift from the lord, that's why we create the obstacle.

6.
:)
recently, i fall in love with a song from mayday -- you are not really happy. someone dedicated this song to me because of the meaning/lyric. ''you are not really happy, your smile is only your cover/protection...''
i choose 'smile/laugh' as one of my 'hobby' many years ago when i was still young. i know the power of it. so i learn & pretend. sometimes, i could even cheat myself, so what do you think? i'm fake? don't know.. what i know is.. there's only someone who know me for years, know me very well, always know when i smile/laugh from heart.

7.
lost
time flies. i know that i lost something, but what is the 'something' actually, i can't give you the answer. i spent too long time to find the thing i lost, too long time, long until i forgot what i lost actually.. maybe myself i think..

8.
opps.. so fast reach 8th point already.. there's still lots of points i wanna add, but time is not allow, so i simply drop down some of the points.. if you want to know more, please go to find the book & read it.

>> no matter how small the window is, the sky is still big
>> we walk so far to find happiness, but happiness is actually just beside us
>> smile is a medicine to cure the troublesome
>> unless you found the reason to wake up every morning, or else you are not really alive
>> your past write the script of your future, you create what you believed in past
>> fear is a chance
>> fear is a way which can help you to find out what you want to find
>> the life of butterfly is only 24 hours, so it must know where it should fly toward
>> happy is a way but not a destination

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