1 month

it's already 1 month ++ that granny passed away.

i thought i'm so bloody that my tears didn't come out when i heard the bad news at 1.45am on 2 june 2009. maybe i was sleeping and had been suddenly woke up by sister.
and i was still steadily go to work the next morning, then only applied leave.

when my first tear came out was at granny's house, but it was just awhile. i am the kind of girl that can cry easily, even when read something touch, but i wonder, why the tears is so hard to come out that time. maybe that was the stage as what amei sing '我想哭但是哭不出来'??

the last day, before they close the coffin, suddenly, many things came across my brain, flashed back memories, and many other things. and i could not stop crying & sobbing.

although i knew that she was tired enough and that was time for her to rest, but i also cannot accept the truth. maybe the truth is always cruel!

the truth is now even more cruel!! too many changes within the months. her sons, her daughters, her grandchildren,.. this is the time to show us the REAL of everyone. i believe that granny know what's going on.

someone said that granny has never leave us. she just transformed to be a star on the sky, so that she can take care of everyone of us at different place, simpang ampat, bm, pg, singapore, england,...

i believe that i am lucky enough to have a star
which can bring me luck & made me feel like a lucky princess.

the rainbow that i wish to reach is not far from here
because . everything . is . turning . good . now!!!

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